Fly away

Time to move on

ITS TIME TO FLY AWAY

Its about time

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GOTTA DO WHAT’S RIGHT

After the whole emotional fiasco, I think I found my peace. I hope.
Today marked the 4th anniversary of me and my ex-girlfriend Cheri.
Or supposed to be. I really wanted to see her, I my wish was answered.
I managed to see her, she was still as beautiful as before.  I just really really
wanted to see her. We had dinner, followed be a long walk home.
We talked, and I found out that she had already found someone new.
Heart breaking? Yes it was.. Very.. But then, I promised myself not to
cry or do anything drastic like kiss her or tell her how much I loved
her. And I didn’t, I held back all those emotions well.

DID IT DO MORE HURT THEN GOOD?

No, it served more good than hurt to me, of course I didn’t want to
hear that she had a new boyfriend. But then again, it wasn’t what I
wanted to hear, but it was what I NEEDED to hear. And I have to
accept it. I have to accept the fact that I can never have her in
my arms, I have to accept the fact that I can never have her candy
sweet kisses and harm hugs. This is a wake up call. I must accept
this fact, or else I’ll never learn to move on. Of course I could feel
my heart stretch and tear my insides, but I maintained a strong
grip over my emotions just as a Jedi should. I didn’t let my emotions
get the better of my judgment.

I’VE MOURNED ENOUGH

Yes, I have cried enough.. Enough of wallowing in my own pity.
Its about time I pick myself up. Only I can do that. Sure I have
friends to help me, but only I can make myself get up. She had
gone through more hurt and pain than me, and its ridiculous
that I am unable to move on. She is strong, and I should follow
her example. Tonight’s meeting was meant to be a proper closure
for me. I don’t know if she needed one, but I did. It was a proper
ending for a fairytale in a sense.

IRONIC ISN’T IT?

All I want, all that I ever want, was to see her happy.
If this is what she wanted, if it makes her happy, it
can’t be that bad. Of course I’m sad, but like I said,
I must accept it. If I really loved her, if I had any love
for her happiness, I’ll have to let her go. Ironic, but true.
She managed to find someone, even through the hardships
she went through, and I will be able to do that as well.

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SAY ANOTHER PRAYER

I PROMISE I WILL SMILE.

GOTTA DO WHAT IT TAKES