Fear of Being Alone

And it finds me

FEAR OF BEING ALONE

The fight inside is coursing through my veins

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A PEACE MISPLACED

I’ve been trying very hard the past few days, but today,
every single emotion just piled up, and I felt myself
falling into depression again. I’m really really trying
my hardest. I know that I have to let her go. And I have.
Its just the feeling of loneliness. It gets to me

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THE PURSUIT OF TRUE HAPPINESS

The most common response is, “Mike, you’re not alone, you have friends.”
But that’s not the point. I can’t kiss my friends can I? I can’t hold my friend’s
hand can I? I can’t show love to my friend’s can I? To me, true happiness is love.
I want to find my happiness. I know one should not look for love. I want to
move on. For her. I know that she wants me to be happy.

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TEARS

I pray for her to be happy with her new boyfriend
even though I am jealous deep inside. I want him
to take care of her. If he reads this, I want him
to know that I refuse to be the catalyst of any
argument. If he is jealous that I am still in contact
with her, I want him to know that, no matter how
much I want to, know this. Right now, she is happy.
With YOU. She is happy with YOU. And I will never
do anything to take that away from her. YOU have to
promise me, that you will take care of her.

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THE LONG WALK

I have chosen this path, and I have to carry on. I promised I’ll smile, and I will.
She found happiness, and I will too. I must.

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And it’s raging

PLEASE FORGIVE ME

The fight inside is breaking me again